Getting some answers!

Well, as I said a couple posts ago, Lydia hates to eat. Always has. For 3 months now she has literally screamed at almost every feeding. She will eat like she is starving sometimes, and then after a few minutes begin screaming, arching her back, her body goes stiff. Well, I thought some of it had passed when she went through a couple weeks with no long crying spells, just crying here and there especially during feedings. So I thought, hey maybe the colic is passing and she is getting better. All the while, the dr. and I were thinking she had issues with gas and that she was "high maintenance and a little picky" with her pickiness over how she liked to be held and only wanting to be held by me, only sleeping for 40 minutes at a time (ever!) and not wanting to eat. So then about 3 weeks ago, the "colic" seemed to come back in full swing especially during the day. She seemed to go back to how she was during month 1 and most of month 2. I began to worry again and research and wonder what it could be. I talked with my mom and I had very similar behavior and had a spastic stomach and reflux. So I had my friend Merrie and Carianne (another time) watch Lydia for a couple hours this week and they both told me Lydia seemed to be in pain from her behavior. So I again got on the phone with the the dr's office. They told me to try soy. That didn't last long, after a day and a half and only eating 3 ounces. I call back, and then was able to talk to the doctor longer this time and he said reflux (my dr. was out recovering from surgery). He said I need to put her on Zantac for infants. I picked it up that day and after 3 days did not see any improvement. Called back to see if the dosage was correct today and my dr. happened to be in the office and told me she was in for a few minutes and to bring Lydia in right away so she could see her. As if on cue, Lydia cried in pain (the way she always does at home) the entire time she was in the office, so it made my claims believable (and not of an uptight mom) and the dr. said she needed to have an upper GI examination done to examine what was going on. She hasn't put on a whole lot of weight, so at this point it is better safe than sorry. So Monday morning we go into the hospital for this test. The dr. said she may have relentless reflux that causes her constant pain. So we will see. I feel so bad for her. She WANTS to be happy, she just can't be right now. I know it is not life threatening, but it is still miserable to see your baby in pain. I have gone back and forth thinking I am crazy. But as my someone told me, I am her only advocate, so if I feel something is wrong with her I have to continue to investigate until I find some answers. With little babies it is so hard to tell in the beginning as you are learning the different cries and behaviors, to know just what is going on. It is a lot of trial and error. So I am hoping we will find some answers and some relief for my sweet little girl. This is a long winded post but if feels good just to type it all out. Please pray for Lydia if you think about it. I am trusting God and knowing that He will enable me to be the best mommy I can be to my little girl.

Oh and an update on me! I found a while back that anemia is part of the problem and am taking care of that. The headaches I am finding as I journal my symptoms are being caused severely only when I am wearing my contacts. So even though my eyes have checked out and my retina buckles are fine, my contacts are still causing the more severe migraines. When I wear my glasses I am not getting them as bad. As for the rest, I am starting to feel a little better, and I am hoping that hormones are the cause for the rest. I didn't get in to see the referred dr. this week. I think I may just be a adjusting back to normal a little slower this time. I have been really paying attention to my diet and have found that I have a little more energy even with not much sleep. Thanks for the comments.